When I speak about you to people, I can’t help but gloat about how lucky I am to call you my brother.

I hope you understand how much I love you. I really admire your thoughts and feelings on life. You’ve inspired me to be the person I’ve become.

The world would be lifeless without your smile and empty echos would fade without the chime of your hello.

Your presence stops time in its tracks.

You light up a room. You’re always good at that. Wherever you go, conversation comes easy because you just want to make the world a better place.

I think it’s incredible how hard you work to make a difference. Your research, your writings, your thoughts, they are going to impact so many lives and already are.

I hope you know how much I enjoy being with you. Even watching you eat is enjoyable because you love and relish every last bite. I think it’s sensational how passionate you are about your food. You’ve always been like that.

I think of you every single day. Even if the phone doesn’t ring or a text has been absent for a couple of days, you’re always vital to my life.

All the moments you were there for me, I carry them close to my heart. You saved my wedding day unhinging my veil from the old church door, and the two of us chugged champagne in the parking lot. You make me laugh.

Thank you for being there for me when no else could understand. I remember lone car rides chatting about our lives and leaving anxiety in the dust. You always understand me and give me the freedom to be myself.

The decision to keep going weighs heavily; I know. I know the feelings you feel because I feel them, too. I understand each day is tasking, and none is like the other.

I wish I could make all of your worries, anxiety, depression, disappear. If there was a way I could take your pain and put it into my own body, I would.

I hope you know that if you left it would shatter the earth. Mountains would quake and life, time, existence as we know it would stand still.

I plead with you to understand that every single day, I would question my existence because I don’t understand how’d I’d take on life without you. You make an ever-standing mark and impression that could save lives, especially mine.

You see, if I leave this letter sealed by my lips, I will regret that. You, are too astonishing, too amazing, too incomprehensible to be without words of affirmation, love of adoration and shown an expression of gratitude.

My token is minuscule and small, but my words are derived from the language of the heart; the ones we don’t speak often. The words we often regret not expressing because it’s a second-hand jargon to our every day life.

You are deserving. You are worthy. Your life matters. You are never alone. You have purpose. You give life. You are light. You are essential. You are never a mistake.

There is no one like you, and there will be no one like you to me.

Please stay. We need you.

If you or someone you know needs help, don’t hesitate to reach out. Don’t wait. There are people here to listen.


Sending love, light and fellowship,

Jake’s sister, Amber.